My Bottle of Thoughts.

June 11, 2012


have you ever been in a situation where an unexpected moments with unexpected person clash in your life ?
yes, i do.

we never expect to know someone, to meet someone when you just don't even care about 'all-the-feelings thingy'. i mean when you try to be heartless to everyone but in the end that one person coincidentally came into your life. oh yes, that was what happen to me. we never knew what Allah plans for us.

and we thought it will be the same thing over and over again. shielding my heart from being hurt again. taking precautions and not take everything too seriously. but apparently it is not like what i expected. yes it is. and the best part is when that person, make you become a better person. especially in religion side, remind me of Allah always. it really a turning point in my life. i just glad that Allah gave me a friends or maybe a person that now i truly care that make a better me. now i realized my mistakes and try to become a better muslimah. it surprising me that one person can affect someone life.

i know when we get too care for someone it will turn to love or maybe a heartbreaks. and then came the confession session, when everything have been seen clearly. Alhamdulillah both of us felt the same way. <3

well everyone have feel to be loved or loving someone. but for now, let it be in your heart. i know it is wrong and we will commit a sin when we loving someone more than Allah s.w.t. So now it is a constant battle between my own feeling to not falling for him too deeply. and i hope Allah open my heart and by faith to receive strength and might.

so tell me who want to lose a person that always makes your faith get stronger, which always reminds us to Allah, and who always put Allah first before us ? no one.
i don't want to tell about the person too much, don't want to expose all about him because we don't know what will happen next. so i just going to tell you that he is such a good person and i respect him and thanked him for always remind me to become a better person.

but don't get me wrong, it is not about him that i want to change to become a better muslimah or more closer to Allah. because 'Love people for the sake of Allah, but never love Allah for the sake of people'

i know it might be too young to fall for this, a lot more things way more important than this. tapi ini semua fitrah manusia. harus menerima dan menghadapinya dgn berakal dan tenang. both of us now have decided to  excel first in life, a lot to study more and give priority to what is more important than this. insyaAllah jika ada jodoh tak kemana. :)

i falling for you more and more every day. i never knew i would fall for love again and i pray this will last. insyaAllah. Amin.

Ya Allah, jika aku jatuh cinta,
cintailah aku pada seseorang yang melabuhkan cintanya padaMu
agar bertambah kekuatan ku untuk mencintaiMu
jagalah cintaku padanya agar tidak melebihi cintaku padaMu
Ya Allah, jika aku rindu, 
jagalah rinduku padanya agar tidak lalai aku merindukan syurgaMu.

i pray to you Allah because you are more aware of what is the best for me.